GrINdM3isTeR

I attended 2 weddings on the first week of July. Both were people that I have known since we were young kids. It’s just normal for people to get married but then I was looking at them and I thought to myself this thought; "Oh my gosh, 10 years ago we were in school uniforms, fooling around, playing afool, skipping classes, snooker, Jaya Supermarket, McD’s, Thrifty Supermarket, One Utama. And we were all damn young at that time. We have all moved on in life, chasing the stars and achieving what we want in life. But I still do feel that we are all just the young people that we were last time. Hey blame me for being nostalgic but those were the times and days that I would never ever ever forget for my entire life. Those were what shaped us to who we are today.

I just felt that "My gosh, am I the only who has the feeling of loneliness?" When I looked at the two couples that got married, they look so damn happy. Are all couples when they get married look so damn happy? I want those happiness. It’s a shame that I’m just not in a relationship. I would love to be in a relationship now cause I have been in ‘mourning’ for too long. Furthermore I gave myself the excuse of me being a commitment freak. I’m just to afraid to try new stuffs. It’s time I start out again.

But that’s not what I want to ramble about today. I actually want to get married soon. HaHaHa…nobody would believe me. I don’t either..Hahaha..but hey..I was out with a friend yesterday when she was shoping for a gift for a friend’s newborn. I followed her and I looked at all the accessories that is available for newborns these days. Extraordinary, phenomenal and EXPENSIVE!! Those are the only few words that I could utter out when I saw the prics on one of the things that could be put in the playpen or the bed (for newborns). It was freaking RM 200 over. Another thing is the baby pram. It was freaking more than RM 1000. I mean what the hell is wrong with the world. I believe that when 2 people decide to have kids, they would actually give all the best to the child. I would too!! But RM 1000 for a baby pram??!! Wouldn’t it be too expensive. Another product. The baby stool trainer. My gosh, they now come in all sizes and colour. They even have music installed in it too. Damn, that thing costs more than RM 200. I think if I ever or for anyone else that matters, it is freaking expensive to actually have a child. Think about it. Studies, handphones, the mp3 players, the XBox and etc etc etc. Wow..estimation..I will need more than RM 1,000,000.

Don’t get me wrong. I love kids but I really have to plan ahead. I told myself if I don’t have RM 30k, I wont want to get married. It’s hard but then..what’s need to be done, needs to be done right.

Thank you..