I have been wasting my time doing things that I know will not yield any results but yet I do it for the hope of results showing at the last minute. I was warned, but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO…as usual I always defy the obvious and here I am right now in this moment of time. I have wasted so much time that I lost so many things in life. I have been an idiot, a fool.
It’s like when you know you won’t have any results when you pursue this particular issue but then yet you want to because it feel nice and good but in the meantime your gut feelings is telling you that it cannot be done because eventually it is going to bring you down. So right now I have been brought down. Till right now I still have not gotten what I want. Yes I expect. SO WHAT??!! YOU MEAN I CAN’T EXPECT??!! BULLSHIT!!! I CAN.
Let me express this out by saying that in whatever we do or I do or you do or whoever does, WE EXPECT SOMETHING IN RETURN!! If not why bother doing it at the first place.
I endured a torrid time yesterday night while driving back home especially the time when I reach the bus stop at my place. It was the weirdest feeling ever let me tell you but I know from that time on, it was all over. It’s all finished. Finito.
It is just pissing me off right now. I’m so FUCKING PISSED OFF now that I can’t even feel myself at times. I was trembling yesterday night when I was in the car. I was ranting and shouting and I was trembling because I knew its going to end there and then. I was not afraid but I was sad and dissapointed that it had to end this way. For me at least.
It’s just the way things would happen. Lets just say that I’m done.
