DeaTH: TrIBut3 To MY GranDMothEr
Today was the funeral of my late grandmother on my mother’s side. She passed away on Sunday night/Monday morning at 12 am peacefully at University Hospital. The nature of her death is the hospital’s fault but right now it doesn’t matter really. I remembered when my mom was rushing to the hospital on a Friday morning, that was the day when i was suppose to go down to PD for the rave. Honestly deep within me I did not want to go but then I told myself to go enjoy myself as I believe my grandmother was bed-ridden for so long and yet she fought for her life and was beginning to show signs of getting better. I knew and I beleived she would pull through it. I left PD on Sunday just right after lunch and when I received my Dad’s phone call halfway back, I had a bad feeling within me that something bad had happen/might happen. When I reached KL, I received a SMS from my cousin telling me that my grandmother might not make it for the night. That was when I rushed to the hospital to see her for one last time. She was still strong but it she was getting weaker by the hour. I was at the hospital for quite some time and when I decided to go back I felt a pang of guilt to leave everyone behind but I wanted to go home to rest at least for half an hour or so before I go out for a yum cha session. I went out for the yum cha, but in less than an hour I was out, I got a SMS from my dad, grandmother had passed away. I rushed to the hospital and the mood was very sombre.
A procession was done in my grandmother’s memory for 3 days 3 nights. A lot of people came to pay their respect to my grandmother and when I looked around, I realise my grandmother had lived a fulfilling life. She had 4 son-in-laws, 2 daughter-in-laws and dozens of grandsons. Instead I feel we should celebrate her life instead of crying over it. Luckily all my aunts and my mom did not cry so much cause I know if they did, all hell will break loose. Instead they chose to accept her death and I guess they felt so much better or they have already anticipated her death and have accpeted it long time ago?
No matter what, poh poh, we will remember you, I will remember you. Though I may/did not fulfill my duties as a grandson to you it will not be the same without you around anymore.
May you rest in peace.
