GrINdM3isTeR

Happy Independence Day to all Malaysians out there. This is the day 48 years ago we achieve our independence and wrestle back our sovereigneity from the British. This is the day we rejoice as one, as Malaysians, as free people, as a country. We all ashould be proud of this day. I don’t know bout you people out there but I’m feeling proud to be Malaysian.

Anyways, what day this is. Went to Sunway. There were loads of people there, and as we Chinese call it ‘people mountain, people see’. Decided to play snooker and we did. Till 12 something. Went to Rainforest after that in Sunway Pyramid and opened up a bottle. Drank and then suddenly we realise that it was time to go home as it was already 3 something. Went home and now here I’m writing this particular blog. What the hell am I doing here now? Shouldn’t I be drunk or something? Anyways, it was a tame celebration this Merdeka Day compared to previous years. Last year I was in Australia so it does not count. But yea, its good to go out and enjoy ourselves. Im satisfied though not happy bout it.

But then I have loads of things going through my mind.

Firstly, as Catstail put it yesterday (I was out yum cha with her),  I’m too good a person. She said I have a good heart and I dedicate my time to everyone equally except for the time when I have a girlfriend. Well I guess that’s true. I do put my girlfriend ahead of a lot of things in my life, if I have a girlfriend la. But that’s not the point. I’m good till the point people will take advantage of it.

Secondly, how do you define a man? Ruggedness? Independent? White hair? Richard Gere? Pierce Brosnan? Mature thinking? How do you define it? While I realise that every different individual has their own specialties but is it hard to be a man?

Maybe there is something that is hidden inside me that I can bring out. But for now..I’m trying to learn how to bring it out!

Today was the funeral of my late grandmother on my mother’s side. She passed away on Sunday night/Monday morning at 12 am peacefully at University Hospital. The nature of her death is the hospital’s fault but right now it doesn’t matter really. I remembered when my mom was rushing to the hospital on a Friday morning, that was the day when i was suppose to go down to PD for the rave. Honestly deep within me I did not want to go but then I told myself to go enjoy myself as I believe my grandmother was bed-ridden for so long and yet she fought for her life and was beginning to show signs of getting better. I knew and I beleived she would pull through it. I left PD on Sunday just right after lunch and when I received my Dad’s phone call halfway back, I had a bad feeling within me that something bad had happen/might happen. When I reached KL, I received a SMS from my cousin telling me that my grandmother might not make it for the night. That was when I rushed to the hospital to see her for one last time. She was still strong but it she was getting weaker by the hour. I was at the hospital for quite some time and when I decided to go back I felt a pang of guilt to leave everyone behind but I wanted to go home to rest at least for half an hour or so before I go out for a yum cha session. I went out for the yum cha, but in less than an hour I was out, I got a SMS from my dad, grandmother had passed away. I rushed to the hospital and the mood was very sombre.

A procession was done in my grandmother’s memory for 3 days 3 nights. A lot of people came to pay their respect to my grandmother and when I looked around, I realise my grandmother had lived a fulfilling life. She had 4 son-in-laws, 2 daughter-in-laws and dozens of grandsons. Instead I feel we should celebrate her life instead of crying over it. Luckily all my aunts and my mom did not cry so much cause I know if they did, all hell will break loose. Instead they chose to accept her death and I guess they felt so much better or they have already anticipated her death and have accpeted it long time ago?

No matter what, poh poh, we will remember you, I will remember you. Though I may/did not fulfill my duties as a grandson to you it will not be the same without you around anymore.

May you rest in peace.

    On Saturday August 20th, the event for the month was held in PD. Yes people its time for Salem’s Revelation Rave! Anyways, I was there as well..haha..I went down on Friday and was there till Sunday. It was good! No, not the rave but rather the company that I had there with me. Pat & ST, Cheah, Ting, Dave, Christy, Keong & Diana and Ser. Ser and Cheah went back on Saturday and did not go for the rave. Anyways, the first night there was tame, playing PS 2, mahjong and only a round of drinks. But the real thing started on Saturday evening to be precise. Us being Chinese, haha, played chinese games to get ourselves work up for the rave. And me being me..haha..got myself drunk in about 2 hours. But yeah, we finished 2 bottles of Jim Beams in under 2 hours and there you go, yours truly me was gone! Ting and Dave wasn’t that far away either. Keong was gone as well. The only person standing was Pat and he had to layan the gals la.

Anyways, went to the rave at 11 plus. Walked bout 20 mins or so but the walk there was peanuts (coz we were all having fun & the effects of alcohol) compared to the walk back where each one of us had to practically drag our feet back there. Had to go through a human traffic jam to get into the rave and when we got in there I was totally bombed. I was overwhelmed. It was actually my first time to a rave. Hahah..my intentions going to this rave was easy as I had lots of friends asking me which rave have I went before. I told them I have not attended any rave before and I certainly rarely layan rave, techno and trance music. I WAS THERE FOR THE CHICKS IN THE BIKINIS! And man, sad to say I came away dissapointed. But there was obviously some good ones (bikinis i mean HAHA) but the bad ones outweighs the good ones.

So eventually we split up. Ting went alone. Christy, me and Dave went our way. I needed to move, move, move, move your boooooody baby. Christy was dancing away as well. And boy can she move the shuffle. Oh boy, I saw lots of shufflers there as well. I guess its the craze but then can you guys drop the happy pants. They look ridiculous + the hot weather in Malaysia. KILLER! Keong & Diana, Pat & ST sat down and decided to retire early from the rave and they went back to the apartment early. Christy, me and Dave went back the latest cause..dunno..we were the last to get back to the apartment.

Went back and I bathed. Then I saw, FUCK, no place to sleep. The 2 couple took the room (WITH THE AIR COND, FUcK), Ting took the sofa bed together with Dave, Christy took the small empty space in between the 2 couple and that left me with……NOTHING..hahah..but I manage to sleep la of course. On the cold floor, with Dave’s feet next to me face all the time..bastard you..hahah..

Woke up quite early la me on Sunday, then ate lunch and went back. All in all, this trip is very very satisfying. It is not about the occasion but rather its the people I go with. Man I enjoyed every minute of it.  

EVERTON 0 - 2 MAN UTD

The title says it all! The scoreline says it all! The game play says it all! The players determination says it all! The running says it all! The goals says it all!

I’m a self confessed Man Utd fan. I’m not a fanatic but then I simply love them. To any of you guys who have seen Man UTd in action during the 90’s, you would understand how I felt when I saw them play Everton today. The one touches, the running, the intensity, the tenacity, the desire to win, it was all present in the game today. I’m so glad. Kudos to Everton though, they met a Man Utd team who know that they have to win this game to be able to win the crown.

Hopefully it will last for the whole season and it wouldn’t be just a sparodic few games. Here is to Man Utd! Cheers!!!

This past week since last Thurs or rather since the 4th of August, I have found out or I would thnk I found out the meaning of being totally generous and the meaning of letting go. I guess I learnt lots of things for the past 5 years of my life. People come and go. Some came back, some decided to move away. I guess what Cheah said is right ‘Life is just like a train. People come and go’

I’m not a perfect person, no one is perfect but I know it’s not bad to improve oneself. A few of my friends said to me (after I asked them) that beneath the flamboyance and charisma I so expertly portray on the outside, beneath I’m just a mouse, timid as ever, low in self-esteem and low in confidence. I don’t deny that but yet I know I now know how to control what is good and bad about me. I get hurt easily but guess what, I know if i don’t get hurt , I won’t learn. After a certain episode with a certain girl who has left me now, I have grown!

I believe that life is like a circle. Once it have turn the full cycle then we would know who we belong to.

Yea I’m finally back home. It’s been more than 2 weeks since I’ve been back and I’m having the time of my life. Sadly to say it must end soon for I have to get back to reality because it is time to look for a job.

Anyways, I have not been enjoying myself as much as now compared to the past one half year of my life. WooOOoHooOO! Going out with friends, mamak, tani session (drinking session), futsal, chilling out at friend’s place doing nothing but talk cock, sing song and play guitar, watchin dvd’s and so many other shits. Got to know 2 new friends from a friend of mine. I’m telling you, this 2 new friend is totally out of this world hahaha…they are just absolutely great. I mean, damn, they are just crazy and great friends to hang out with.