GrINdM3isTeR

When the night is quiet, i think of u more. It is not easy to sleep well when u know u’re thinking of someone crazily. I just can’t get you out of my head CHO CHUN NENG!!!!!

U know what, i have been thinking all bout our future all these day. Dont know what,my imagination just keep on thinking bout this. FUCK!!!!!!!! CAN’T U JUST GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!

Last time i did told myself that dont "give up the whole forest just because of a tree" and i did told myself dont put a guy too deep in ur heart when u not confirm whether u r the last women for him/ whether he is the last man for u. But, what m i doing now LEW YI FAN?? i just ignore what i told myself b4……..It’s easier to hurt someone than to love someone, what if we r not together next time??  What if u drop me next time?? What’s forever?? there is no forever in this world!!What will i do if i lost the one i love??? Damn!!!!…what a man u are?? Why abuse me a lot???  FUCK!! I HATE U !!!!

U sent me tis..i will remember u!! U have fun n pls take care..n im sure u still know wat i say all the time..

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

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How Normal Are you

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Other things you do are downright strange

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i know i have to start looking for jobs soon, but not here, they simply do not wan international students to work or its tat they are preferring locals to us. It’s true, im not lying. Catstail its not tat i dunwan to find a job, its practically not there for us considering that it is also the school hols for the kids too.

Anyways, i know u care bout me n i deeply appreciate it, i guess i have to n muz come out fr the shell now than later n start getting my life straight again. i cant do tis shit anymore..but thanks catstail. ur concern n scolding is registered in my brain. Hehe..*muakzs* N tats for u to jay..*muakzs* love u both..:) u 2 havae been supportive and ever present in my time of grief and sorrow and sadness and confusion and erm..watever la..hehe..u catch my drift

anyways..today was a bleedy rush day for the first few hrs after i woke up..parjit n i rushed down to the city to get our tickets booked to go back malaysia n we only took the bus at 4.30..hehe..MAS office closes at 5pm here in perth..gee 5pm?? even the shopping malls ppl..5pm..now can u dig tat sucka!!!

Got our tickest n place booked..so its now officially confirmed i will b coming back on the _ _ of july..hhehe..dunwan tell u ppl yet..yes im being mysterious n being a bitch..heheh…buy iys july la ppl..

then went snooker again..yes again..but later tis time we went casino..hehe..well its not new for me but its new for parjit..showed him around a bit n balls man..lost 20 bucks again..its kinda like shitty..

Yen Lin is going off to melb pretty soon..its the 6 am plane..n im all alone in the house..its like sigh..fucking notin to do..ever get the feeling of loneliness n + no one is in the house..tis is like fucking hell..im like going out everyday n coming back to an empty house..shall i come back early ppl?? or shall i stay here for a while more??

Oh what a nite..dum dum dumd..oh welll its suppose to be a song but i do not know the lyrcis..hehe..so who cares.

anyways..woke up today..was like around 3..deliberated on whether to go down to the city to do sum shopping but decided against it. then was supposed to go dinner wif housemates..they said its coz was my birthday few days back. oh well y not..i havent been out wif them for a looooong time. went eat italian food..hhmm..could havae been better..its called Spaghi Restaurant at Mill Point just opposite Gelare. anyways..its aight i guess..after that went to burswood casino. man i should not have went there, lost 100 aussie dollars man..not good not good..hehe..n rite now its 5 so i was officially out of the house for like a good 12 hrs man..time flew by like…an aeroplane??

anyways..i want to like go shopping i dunno when but i realise i have to pay up a lot of things here in perth..looks like i have to save up a bit.

OOooOO..to any of u who have not seen The Longest Yard..go watch it!!! It’s nice, funny n there are sum famous ppl in it..go check it out..

Anyways, i have to find a life ere in perth man, i m like complainin every single time when i wake up that there is nothing to do ere in perth. damn..there is seriously nothing to do here in perth. Hey, hopefully when i call ppl out they will not think tat im desperate or tat im a boring person..heheh..coz u know wat, it is perth that is making me this boring..hehe..im in fact a very exciting n interesting guy..hahah..YEA RITE..!!!nites ppl..its late..

P/s: Happy Birthday to Iris..Hope ur reading this though, tried to call u but ur phone out..guess ur outstation then..hehe..but enjoy babe *muakzs*

U know, today’s my day but im not feeling rejoiceful at all. Ah..fuck it la

U know wat ppl, ever felt shit when its ur birthday?? Yea I’m feeling that now!! I want to get drunk but there is no ppl to get drunk with n no money. I want to cry but i cant get it out, I want to shout out loud so i can let go of my frustration, anger, sadness but i cant do it here (its too quiet, will wake ppl up) I want to be able to do things properly n correctly and better but why cant i do it?

Today is suppose to b a happy day for me, as i said i waited for this years birthday for a long time liaow, its the end of my studies, my then gf promised tat she will give me a surprise for my birthday, we promised we will see each another tis middle of the year and so many more things.

Yea but its not happening and that is what im so pissed off, angry, sad, frustrated. Tell me what m i to feel??

Gee, I’m a bit on the sad side huh now?? I cant help it at the moment. I guess i will have to wait till it wears off (which i hope it will in an hour or two time)

But till then..God, seriously…pls..im too too tired now..

P/s: Happy Birthday to me..;D Thanks for the birthday wish Catstail

Oh yah, ignore the date below..its really the 24th of June now..heheh

hey all,

check tis shit out ppl. its called EPIC 2014

its kewl yet scary yet exciting yet daunting yet interesting

yet perhaps too far-fetched yet..did i mention exciting??

i guess those of u who read this will b lucky but i doubt anyone ever reads my blogs..r they consider blogs?

or ramblings? or juz opinion tat dum make sense? anyways..enjoy..

sometimes i wonder why do we have to suffer first before we get to enjoy. issit coz we humans do not know how to appreciate?

sumtimes i wonder why do god give us sumtink and later take it away?? issit coz we humans need to learn how to appreciate?

sumtimes i wonder why people think so much with their head instead of using their heart along with their brains? issit coz we humans are afraid to get hurt?

sumtimes i wonder why…

i thought i have cleaned house, mopped up the water on the floor, found the key to the door again, and felt tat im getting out of the rut tat im in, but instantly the next minute (or probably longer..) i feel the same old shit again!!

so GOD, why are u doing this to me? r u seriously playing games on me? u testing me out, to see what kind of person i m n how what im made of? tofu or fried tofu or wat? stop playing these jokes on me dear god..im tired……….

I was reading The Star newspaper online bout 30 mins ago, n i came across an article that really touched my heart. its about tis 6 or 7 yrs old malay gal who have to take care of her wheelchaired grandma n she had no birth cert and cant go to skool coz of tat.n obviously being malaysians, ppl from all walks of life donated money and the government intervene and now she can go to skool. then out fr nowhere a chinese gal, same age same plight but instead of grandma its her father. they have now became good friends. i mean these 2 gals, regardless of race, colour, language, and so many other barriers that we growns up have to face, they have become…friends…get wat i mean?? isnt it ironic tat they will and can eventually grow up to be leaders of the country and have one another through their ups n downs. LEARN FROM THIS ADULTS OF MALAYSIA!! LEARN ALL  U MOTHAFUCKAS!! I’m learning from them as well. Period.

another thing, was going thru jays blog as well, she is well liked by her bosses and even her boss’s boss. n now they wan to train her in PR and the chances of her achieving more in her career path is so bright at the moment. gosh im si happy for her..yet im afraid..but who cares..heheh..anyways..ciao

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those dots represents wat i felt today. unending, relentless search for activities today but yet THERE WAS NOTHING TO DO!!

gosh..save me!! its only the 3rd day of the hols and im already complainin tat there is notin much to do rite now in perth. there is seriously notin to do in perth man!

anyways..im fucking fucking fucking fucking bored. but anyways even if im back home i will b saying the same mothafucking things.

n at times rite now, im feeling so damn restless i want to do sumtink stoopid but i cant find anything to do!!

yeah..u know i was actually waiting for this years birthday since last year, but rite now im actually dreading the day when it comes. reason is that ive got notin to look forward to this birthday. well i guess i have to learn to live with it. its not like there is anything i can do bout it but at least mayb rite now i can and must try to make myself happy and enjoy the day coz its my day rite.

yea i will try n do sumtink bout it but besides tat damn…hahah..bye